Posted October, 31, 2004

Constant reminder, and acknowledgment to you, for you are something that will never be forgotten.


These tears i shed are for you, you were a great friend G-Force and you will truly be missed.
You will always be a part of me, you will be in my heart.
You were a amazing, and a good friend to me!. I
don't have many friends good friends, but you were there to help me, to talk to me, to celebrate my birthday. You were one that i could call a freind.
We had a funny past, one which made us closer, and i still don't regret, for some of those things brought us closer. Everything in life branches off, and i'm glade my actions branched off to you!
Thank you again for all your words, for your company, for you ear.
Thank you for helping, when i got drunk, when i was sad, and when it was my b-day!
You talked to me when i drowned and rambled on, when my head was in the wrong place.
You were conserned when i cut!
YOU ARE UNBELIEVABLE AND I MISS YOU, I WILL MISS YOU FOREVER. I hold on to things for a extremly long time, and well you were a great friend and you died, I WILL PROBABLY NEVER FORGET YOU, FORGET OUR FRIENDSHIP..
I AM SDOOOO SORRY YOUR DEAD... I MISS YOU, I WISH YOU DIDNT DIE, I WISH I WAS THE ONE! I WOULD GIVE ANYTHIGN TO BE REPLACED WITH YOU! I WISH YOU WERE ALIVE I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!
(i just saw you!!! you were alive i just saw you, you took me out on my birthday, you slept over, you were teaching me how to drive, we had good times together. I didnt see you all the time, or talk to you, but when we did it was great!
ITS SOO SAD I JUST SPOKE TO YOU, I TALKED TO YOU i htink wend until almost 1am, WE TALKED, AND THANK YOU FOR THAT, THANK YOU FOREVRYTHING
I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU
R.I.P MY GOOD FRIEND,ANTHONY

my tears i shed our for you, my smile is for the memories, the frowns are for the fact that you are gone.

R.I.P (everytime i hear closing time i will be reminded of you, so many things will remind me of you)

LOVE YOU, MISS YOU, G-FORCE!
ANTHONY


XXXmarschaXXX



i wish i would of been replaced by you!
i wish i was the one that went!
i wish, i wish so much,
i'm so sorry,
i'm so sorry
i miss you
i miss you
please, please come back
i miss you too much
i don't care if im being selfish now
I WANT YOU BACK!!!!!!!!!!!
I MISS YOU
PLEASE,
Fuck why did you have to leave
i wish it would of been me!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Posted December, 11, 2004

POEM:


Ynohtna nadrog



Take what you believe
and throw it away
Take what you know
And discard it from your brain
Now starting out fresh
maybe this life will make sense
maybe I’ll be with you
If death will bring us closer
let it be
Anything to be with you
my dear Anthony
You are gone
and I did cry
you are gone
because you’ve died
and I can’t forget
I will hold on
I will remember
but I can’t be strong
I wish this for so long
But for my part
and I will do anything
To be replaced
by your dark
My tears won’t
Wash away my grief
Only your spoken words
that tried to heal my pain
I am sorry
that you are gone
I am sorry
for the trouble I’ve caused
But you are in my heart
and I will try not to forget
those memories we’ve shared
and the hilarious moment
when we became
better friends



(¨`v´¨) Still missing you (¨`v´¨)
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Posted May, 1, 2005

God Rest his soul (Anthony Gordon)


i know it can hurt, i know you must cry
i know how it is
to be the one who survives…

It sucks that I’m the one still living
when he's the one who’s gone
it sucks that
'whose ever up there'
took him away from his home

I’m was the one who pleaded
the one who wanted to die
i am the one
that wanted to leave,
my life behind

He was cherished
and loved
someone who helped others
as well as me

…why did he have to go?

i love him, and miss him
my friend Anthony,
i still think about him
and how i wish
i was the one that was replaced
by his dead body

He was something special
and one of a kind
…He was the one
that was there
when others
left me behind
…And my scars he did hide
so others won't know
he said a quick joke
to set the mood
…And he was there to
walk me home straight
when i was acting foolish
and probably made a mistake
…He was there to
reassure my words
to tell me “you’re not stupid”
when my actions took control
…He was there
to celebrate my 17th
…and he sat up with me
when it was late
…he chatted on the phone
and tried to help
me with my pain

(I still miss him!)
(I didn’t want him to go!)

…and the picture he drew
is up on my wall
…he said it isn't quite me
without my glasses on

…and in class i sit
remembering where
he stood
he might not be able to do that anymore
but he will forever live
within my heart
for he will be sadly missed
and forever in our thoughts

So I’m sorry for all who feel the same
sorry to all
who might have this pain
sorry for your lose, as well
But at least you got to know
an amazing person

so…God rest his soul!


From a friend
dedicated to a friend
and to all who knew such an amazing person

R.I.P Anthony Gordon
Anthony, These tears I shed are for you, The smiles are from memories, & the frowns are because you’re gone, I love you & will miss you forever, you will be remembered!



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March 14th, 2005
QUIZY QUIZ
flamtoung's quiz... answered by moi...
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:stolen from flamtounge:
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FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKIN FUCK!
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{Don't mind my scarps, writtin' peices, don't have to read it.. i wrote it whenever and posted it for then i can have it still stored}





O.o-------------------------- 30th of Augest i moved for all you fuckers that thought i was gone, for those that ask, to all those that don't give a fuckin shit, and those who willl be glade whem i'm gone.. there is the fuckin date!


......So therefore i won't be on for a while, most likley n'shat!
It'll be good.. my father thinks so and others.. it'll be a fresh start which can be a + thing, and well.. i'll get to leave all the assholes behind and friends that left etc. I'll get to meet a bunch of new goddamn assholes and people that will leave in the end.. WOOP WOOP

EVERYBODY FUCKIN' LEAVES IN THE END.. At least..... right now, who's ever left in my life i get to leave them before they leave me-------------------------- O.o but i have a problem...i hold onto things (PPL) too long


lol "I'm not pestimistic.. i'm just a realistic optimist !!" HAHA
Well I know i might be.. But whatever helps!

Whatever floats your boat! and helps you through
whatever keeps you alive, anythign that helps you survive


ANYWHO
bye to all that do not care.






{To whome it may concern: Schüss}



Toodles




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FIGHTING A SICK BATTLE

went to the Doctors for another check up, a few days prior i had orriginally went told me to come back in three days + i was getting worse so there was no real choice, once i got in the room and she checked me, she said i had to go to the Hospital and go to EMERGENCY....
Left the Hosipital last night with 39.2 C

got iv's, blood tests, antiflamatory and maybe something else.. through my veins now OFF work for at least a week great, but... no money comming in on my end.